Happy New Year!

Well, it's been pretty lousy so far. I haven't written much in the last two weeks because all life and fun seems to end while I hide in my apartment and wait for the Christas blues to subside. It didn't help that I've been sick for over a month now. Every morning I wake up and have a sneezing attack, teary eyes, and drain, drain, drain my sinuses for a couple of hours before I feel ready to face the world. When will it end? I might have to actually visit a doctor sometime.

I also had realized that I'm facing a horrible reality this year - I'm hitting forty! After my 39th birthday last August, I didn't think much about it, but now that the new year kicked in, my mind kept repeating "1964, 2004, 1964, 2004...." until I really started freaking out. I'm determined to make this a good year. I've been really lazy, perhaps it's my age, but I've been resisting running, swimming, and working out, but for the first time I'm making a resolution - get active again. I want a 40th birthday to be proud of. Let's see if I regret writing this in 8 months.....

I'm embarrased to admit that I've only recently discovered that lots of inexpensive, new porn can be bought through eBay. I always that that I could only get used stuff, and who wants to buy a used video. Who know where it's been, or even if the guy or gal washed their hands after its last use, hee hee. Anyway, I also realized that adult stores like Frenchy's are for suckers, especially if you're interested in specific fetishes. They cost _way_ too much!

Anyway, I bid on a couple. The only problem was that one of my DVDs arrived, and I was surprised to find that it wasn't the right one! I bid on Transsexual Heartbreakers #11, and I received Transsexual Beauty Queens #11. Big difference! I really wanted Heartbreakers because I'm fascinated by one of its stars - Kelly. Probably not her real name, but it's been so hard to find out anything about her, and believe me, I've tried.

I wrote the guy who sent me the wrong DVD, and he apologized, and he promised he'd send the right one, and let me keep the wrong one for all the trouble. The best part of that deal was that I had recently met one of the stars of that DVD in the tenderloin, so I got a chance to see a whole 'nother side to her. Whatta country, huh?

Anyway, I've been so desperately behind at work, and so bored at home, that I've been dragging myself to the office day after day to catch up. It hasn't been that bad, but I've just been in a lousy, irritable mood. Actually, I'm always that way, but at least I have a reason now. The good thing is I got a lot of stuff done. That bad thing is I have no energy to do much else, so I've been playing boy scout all week and going home and in bed (alone) early every night.

We had an open house at the office last night, which was kind of a bummer because I knew I would be late getting to my friends' weekly Thursday night get-togethers. By the time I left work (close to 9) I had no energy left, and planned to go straight to bed, but something happened, I just wanted to see some familiar, friendly faces that weren't attached to my office. So I got home (and found parking instantly, first miracle!) dumped my back-pack and laptop, and headed out to the bar. On the corner of Valencia and 20th, I compulsively peeked into Dog-Eared books. I turned back to cross the street, and this attractive woman approached me, and asked if I volunteered at the SPCA adoption center. I told her I did, and she reminded me that I helped introduce her to her current cat. I asked how it was going and she said it was wonderful, she was totally in love with him, and wanted to thank me for the help. That really meant a lot at that moment, and I told her so. So much of my life revolves around being a professional asshole, and it's good to know I do some good in the world.

I got to the bar and most of my friends were still there. J gave me some pictures that she took almost a year ago. I barely remembered posing for them. It was a nice gift! I told my friend A about the nice complement I received outside, and she said nice things to me as well. What a night! I also had a good talk with my friend D. He recently came back from a vacation in New York, his original home, and we talked about how much we appreciate living in San Francisco. Sure, it's cold right now, but not as cold as New York or Chicago. Sure they have a nightlife that goes deep into the night, and we have fewer places each year that stay open after 2. Sure it's raining like crazy right now, but hey, it's also very sunny and hot during the summer in the Mission. And I love coming home every night and walking past the beautiful Edwardians and seeing pretty views on almost every corner or hill. This city represents so much - the end of the westward expansion, gay rights, a community that's still mostly liberal and tolerant of diversity. Sure, a frat-boy asshole was just sworn in as mayor and he plans to do serious damage to the poor and renters, but we'll fight him, and do what we can to keep this city a city of neighborhoods, local shops, and unique beauty.

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